This week we covered New Year Resolutions we need to make, gave men some serious love advice, got our salads tossed (sorry mom and dad), and talked about the passion we had with a past love. Before the first week of the New Year fully ends, I can’t leave you without the greatest message I’ve to share at the start of a new beginning….forgiving yourself. I hugged Elijah this morning. As I was hugging him, I thought to myself…I could have fallen in love with him instantly had it not been for my past. You see…the first major breakup I ever had with the ex factor was at the end of 2012. At the beginning of 2013, heartbroken and confused, I started dating a college associate (mister tossed salad actually) that had been pursuing me since my freshman year of college. I knew I wasn’t ready to date but he insisted he was my husband. After 3 months of what seemed like bliss, it all blew up in my face and I was left devastated. I still have scars from that choice I made. Even with Elijah being so close to me daily….I still can’t allow myself to fully trust him. In actuality, it’s myself I do not trust. To this day, I’ve yet to forgive myself for dating the ex factor for so long that he drove me to the madness that was…mister tossed salad! So I carry the shame of all I went through…which I allowed myself to go through…with me. I want to fall in love again! I want to trust again! I want to breathe a man but this time with him also breathing me! So I struggle with forgiveness! If you are still holding on to some deep pain…there’s a great chance you can’t let go of it because…you haven’t forgiven yourself. Let 2016 be the year we learn to “let go and let God.” I know it’s easier said than done but we are only human and deserve a fresh start…a new love…a new life. Won’t you start this journey of forgiveness with me? ~KJM on the road to forgiveness during Flashback Friday!