I’m touched. First date. Deep conversation. Had he ever been in love? Yes….twice. We were in a quiet restaurant drinking wine and beer as I asked him his deepest secrets. He responded by slipping his hands in between my legs. I’m touched and climaxing right there at the bar. People laughing and talking around us as I cum. I want to resist because that’s what good girls do. We don’t cum in bars as we whisper into the ears of a potential partner. His hand is getting deeper. Touching a part of me that has not been touched in years. I yearned to be wanted. It’s been so long since I’ve been touched. He’s…taking…me….there. I’m touched and I want him. Climaxing and thinking I have to have him. I’m in trouble. Too soon to be touched. ~KJM after our official first date
Eyes meet even though I’m trying to avoid his deep gaze. He wants to taste me. I know this because his eyes are asking permission. And I want to hold off. Eyes meet again only now he’s pulling me close. Lips meet. No lips lock. He’s…tasting….me….and I’m…breathing….him. Eyes closed. Our tongues are speaking…anticipating. He tastes like home. Like home on a stormy day. Like listening to the rain falling on a summer day from my bedroom window. There’s a deep yearning. The kind I never even knew existed. We are now tasting, breathing, and enticing each other….
KJM on Temptation Tuesday
Mama Michaels: Kingston, never let a man tie you up (meaning never let him use you, abuse you, and waste your time). Me: Mom, the only way a man can tie up a woman is if she has kids for him. Mama Michaels: Your father has never had the power to tie me up.
Mama Michaels on Charm School Monday
I go to bed at night feeling like we’ve made love a million times. It’s a beautiful thing when a man makes love to your mind and spirit way before ever touching your body.
KJM in the beginning and in between night time dreams
The most dangerous kind of envy and jealousy is not of your clothes, cars, money, nor looks. It’s the kind that watches how resilient you are to trials and tribulations; the kind that watches how you love your spouse; the kind that watches how you raise your children; and the kind that watches your day to day trying to figure out how you do what you do. This type of jealousy is so dangerous because it can go undetected for long periods of time. It can come in the form of so called friends and family. Watch out for those who envy your foundation…for it’s from this source that all your true wealth derives.
KJM staying in faith and thanking the Lord for all her blessings.
Recognise the people who are dangerous to your emotional well being before they damage you permanently. Trust your instincts. Have faith in your gut. And most importantly remember this, not everyone deserves a second chance the same way you do not have a second heart to replace your heart if it shatters beyond repair.
Trust Your Gut Around Dangerous People | Nikita Gill (via untamedunwanted)
I use to make fun of the couples making out in public. But today there we were in the rain…kissing passionately. I haven’t felt this kind of intense attraction in years. It was like…only he and I existed. It felt that way every time he pulled me close to kiss me.
KJM in the beginning
I want him to know who’s BOSS. So I carefully dressed in a long skin tight navy blue dress that said “Live, Laugh, Love.” It was my way of saying….Welcome to the island of Jamaica. If you so choose…feel free to partake in the fruit of the land but don’t you ever disrespect its QUEEN. Shout out to Mama Michaels for purchasing this dress for me a few weeks ago! Lol
KJM in anticipation
And just like that…he kissed me. There standing in the rain. Me in a tan dress and an army green jacket (his favorite color). Him in a white dress shirt and black slacks. It was raining so hard. He took my hand, held the umbrella over my head, and kissed me. I felt like….I was wanted for the first time in a long time. I felt needed. And then I reminded myself to keep my legs closed lol
KJM in the beginning